After another two-week period of pain and agony, the long-awaited, redeeming rain finally arrived. Since that, I am walking above the clouds, while I haven’t fully understood what happened to me yet. In one moment, burning happiness wants to blow my mind, and I have to hold myself back not to start singing and dancing in the middle of the office. In other moments, I am trembling anxiously from the massive doses of uncontrollable vitality and joy trying to break out of my body. I am going back and forth from one extreme state to the other. My body can’t digest the new experience and the new feelings yet.

Looking back on these days and on other similar experiences from my last years, I can clearly see a pattern that repeats itself over and over again: the characteristic waves of change, with their five stages.

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